This last week really flipped our little world around. When everything was happening last week Jamie and I just wanted to go home. We wanted to be with Aubree, Luke and Ryan and just be in our own home. There has been a lot of time to think about life. To think about what we could have done different the last 5 months. When we were still in Indiana as I cried the hymn came to mind "Where Can I Turn for Peace" I told my friend about it and she printed the song for me. I love reading the words to that hymn. It is one of my new favorites now. There have been so many wonderful friends with great insight. Jamie got advise. The advise was we have a open wound right now. NOW is the most important time for us. Do we fill it with bitterness and anger or do we fill it with learning, growing, forgiving and other good things. Once that wound closes that is what we are left with. We choose to grow from this. After this entry I am really going to try hard not to not write anything else about this. Yesterday was a good day for me. I felt love and peace. In the evening I struggled. I am so thankful that our home is a safe place for us. I am thankful that there is peace in our home. A lot of family and friends have cried with us and for us. Thank you so much for loving our family. We really do feel the love. Thank you for all the prayers and kind thoughts. We will get through this and good will come of it. We still feel loss and still feel like a little one is missing but the Lord is in control and right now I have promised him I am on autopilot! I have faith he will lead us to good places!
5 comments:
you are AWESOME. That's all I need to say... ohhh... and I love you, I love you and I love you!!!!
beautiful post, darla- what perfect counsel jamie received as well- I'm going to remember that.
That is a great attitude to have Darla! All of life is choice, not that it is easy, but it is choice and I'm glad you have chosen this attitude. However, that doesn't mean that you aren't allowed to be sad, angry, and to feel every emotion at least a little.
I'm glad you are feeling better.
ps it was fun to see a picture of your house. I felt like I was there. Oh I would love to come and watch the notebook in your basement with popcorn and treats.
You're on your way to healing well. That is a good thing. I can fell it inyour words. Heavenly Father is bleassing you already. He loves you and will always be there for you.
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